Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Lotsa Change.


I don't know whether to cry or scream or do one hundred somersaults down a giant hill.
This morning was absolutely hilarious. Liesy and I were getting ready together. We listened to graduation by vitamin C, and the emotions were absolutely bipolar. We'd be jumping up and down and then crying and then laughing and then who knows what. 

People keep asking me if I am nervous to graduate. You know what? I am a little nervous, I am also SO excited, happy, sad, scared, and proud. I made it through college, and through one of the hardest programs at BYU. So big pat on the back for me! Next year, I am moving up to Salt Lake City and I got accepted into the accounting grad program where I will learn to master accounting. Pretty cool huh? I think it’ll be a good change. A couple miles up north, close enough to be able to come back to what I am familiar with, but far enough to change it up a little bit. 

I think with most change comes so many different emotions. And not because the next step or change in my life will be bad. It is just going to be different. We talked about change the other day in my business strategy classes. As humans, we tend to resist change. We go to class: sit in the same spot. When we go to parties: we talk to the same people. We are drawn to what we are comfortable with. We get into a state where we are comfortable, and even though experiencing something new could be good, it puts us out of our comfort zone.

Even if things in our life aren't going well, if we make a change, we could have a whole new set of problems. At least if we keep up the same mediocre life, we know the problems we have, and we are comfortable with them. But you know what, with change, we also could become something so much better.

If there is anything I’ve learned from the past four years, it is that we cannot become better without change. So if change makes me better, why is change hard? Because it puts me out of my comfort zone.

A lot of the time, things don’t make sense in the moment. But when you look back, it’s amazing to see how God is always a part of the biggest transitions/changes in my life. He always finds a way to take care of me and give me exactly what I need. I've been particularly lucky with my roommates, and best friends. Heavenly Father literally sent Stacy to me when I had no friends. Or Cassi letting me stay at her house when we had talked like 3 times. And Caitlin, Chanelle, and my roommates now, Anneliese and Rachel. They’ve been exactly the people I’ve needed, for the transitions and changes I was going through and to just be examples to me and it’s so cool to think about.

Change can be hard sometimes. Change can come in all different ways. Moving, graduating, losing someone close to you, etc. I've learned that it is okay to have a bad day. It is okay to take a break, as long as you get yourself up and eventually focus on the blessings that you do have. Even though I'm freaking out a little bit right now because this part of my life is coming to a close, I know that everything is going to be awesome, and I'm sooooo excited.

This clip by Elder Busche is one of the coolest clips and honestly makes me feel like I can get through and achieve just about anything. 

ANYWAY. Life is SO cool. There are so many opportunities and things to achieve and do. I just wish there was enough time to do everything and learn everything. We can't plan always plan every part of our lives. Life happens. As much as I try to plan out my life, it has a way of surprising me, but I've learned that those curve balls usually are accompanied by something much cooler then anything I had planned for myself. 

So keep moving forward. Be better every single day. Don't be afraid to try something new.

Change is awesome.



Thursday, February 14, 2013

Valentine's day thoughts (original, I know)

Feliz dia de San Valentin, lovers.

Soooooo in celebration of my absolute favorite holiday, I'm writing a blog post! I know, it's a Christmas miracle. It's been awhile, but this blog needs some love.

Okay, it's not actually my favorite holiday, but seriously, I don't know why so many people hate Valentine's day. What's wrong with pretty much being forced to tell the people you love, that you love them. In South America, its known as the day of love and friendship. Hopefully, everyone has someone they can call a friend. Call them up, let them know you are there for them and you love them! There are so many amazing people in this world. One of the greatest things in life is the ability to love. You can never have or give too much love, right? I mean, I was blessed with the gift of love.... seriously though. I love things/people/everything, pretty easily. My kids are in for it, because I will smother them. Hopefully they apreciate it when they are older though hahaha. Also, whenever my friends ask me what they should say to a boy that they are interested in while they are texting him, my response every time: "just tell him you love him." Too much? Hahahaha

As fun as last Valentine's day was, it wasn't that fun. But, I did learn a lot about myself from the experience. First, (and based off of previous years) I learned that Valentine's day isn't really my luckiest day. It's more of a Friday the 13th for me.
Second, I learned that I need to be a good example, in the way I talk, in the way I dress, and in the way I treat others. People notice what you do, and sometimes you don't realize how one action or fb post can be taken.
Third, I learned that it is important to be true to yourself, people who don't even know you will say whatever they want about you, and it's important to have confidence in yourself and don't take strangers criticism too seriously.
Overall, Looking back to a year ago, I have learned and grown so much and I'd like to think I'm a better person. Starting out this year, I made it a goal to let my faith be bigger than my fears. I told myself if I had a worthwhile goal, whether in dating, in school, with my family, anything - that I would pursue it with faith, and give it everything I have. One of my biggest problems is that I'm not patient. I think I need to know things NOW. I used to worry a lot, but I've really learned how to be more patient with myself, and really trust that if I'm doing what I'm supposed to, that the Lord will guide me to where I'm supposed to be.

I don't want to make this post too long. So I'll wrap it up here.

For those of you who hate Valentine's day, (usually the lonely ones (haha the word lonely is the worst....)) take the time to just find someone you really do love. A parent, a sibling, a friend, a potential lover, and tell them you love them. Because let's be real, Valentine's day is just a normal day. Don't take it too seriously. And if really gets you upset... my best advice, stay off of social media... and eat a lot. A lot of chocolate. As for me, this year, I'm just going to stay clear of any cubicals in the Tanner building.


PS. My boyfriend Justin Bieber wrote me the sweetest song <3